Reason, Season, or Lifetime

Someone who I thought was a dear friend has just cut me from her life with no explanation.  I'm still reeling...beyond hurt, and trying to understand.   I have to respect her decision, and in spite of the heartache I feel, I still believe that she is one of the kindest and most generous persons I've ever met, and I will always wish her and her family nothing but good things.  

I found this poem...and it helps.  A little.  Makes me feel very blessed that I have so many friendships that are LIFETIME, and yes, blessed that I have had the friends that I've needed for the REASONS and the SEASONS in my life.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty;

to provide you with guidance and support;

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled; their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,

and put what you have learned to use 
in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

-unknown

Procrastination - Story of my Life!

Wow, this is my FIRST blog post of 2015!  I have really been slacking on the blogging.  I keep meaning to, but never manage to actually get it done.  Like nearly everything else in my life, I just put it off and put it off...I'll do it later.  I'll do it tomorrow.  I'll do it next weekend.    Maybe that's why I work so much better when I'm under a deadline...hmmmmm.  I am REALLY going to try to be more regular with my blogging in 2015.  We'll see how that goes.

I am going to pick up my kettlebells again.  I am going to start swinging regularly.  I will start out very slowly so I don't mess up my back again.  But...I haven't actually done it yet.  I am PROCRASTINATING!   I'm not sure why...is it just because that's what I do?  Or am I really afraid of hurting myself?   It's been so very, very nice to not have the chronic back pain...but the only way that I can ensure that continues is by getting stronger in the core!

I went to the doc for my check-in on Dec 30...drumroll....as of Dec 30 I was down 33 POUNDS!   I lost inches too, can't remember exactly how much, but even more importantly is how much better I'm feeling physically.   The constant aches and pain in my joints and my back...gone.  Sugar is a known inflammatory, and having not had anything with added sugar (including processed crap!) in over two months has made such a difference that I can hardly believe it.  I just have to remember always how miserable I was feeling.  I don't ever want to feel like that again.  EVER.

I'm down two sizes in my jeans...and will soon be down two sizes in the tops as well.  I'm giving away the clothes as they get too big to wear because I do NOT ever want to wear them again.  I'm NOT keeping them around "just in case".   My goal is to only have clothes that fit.  To be able to wear everything I own.   Who knows, I may only need one dresser and one closet if that's the case! LOL

So now my mission is to get active again.  To start moving regularly and get more core strengthened and my cardio built up.   I have my kettlebells, a bosu, a medicine ball and an exercise bike...so right now it's just my laziness holding me back.  I need to just do it.  Get up earlier and get it done before my brain fully wakes up and my lazy kicks in!  HA.  I was really hoping my ass-kicking friend Nancy was going to be moving back to town in January and we'd start hitting the gym at o-dark-thirty every morning again, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen in the immediate future, so I'm going to have to just kick my own ass for awhile.

So, as I'm starting slow, I'm setting a very conservative goal for this next week:

• THREE KETTLEBELL WORKOUTS
• FOUR EXERCISE BIKE RIDES (10 min minimum)

I'll be sure to blog by the end of the week - whether I achieve my goal or not!

On another note, I have been fighting with my crown since November 16 when the temporary was put on.  It was pretty miserable for awhile, due to the ill-fit, but it definitely made it easy to get through the holidays without giving into the constant temptations everywhere.

I was going to have a root canal done on Jan 7 - I was waiting until a new benefit year kicked in, but I canceled the appointment because it is feeling so much better.  The pain is gone, the sensitivity is lessening more every day.   YAY!   Like my (NEW) dentist said, it was traumatized by the ill-fitting temporary, and then the permanent also needed some sanding down, as well as the cement that was left under it removed and it would take awhile to recover.   It's going to be a very, very long time before I let a drill anywhere near my mouth again, that is for SURE.   The most ridiculous thing is, NEITHER the tooth with the brand new crown, and the tooth on the other side with the brand-new onlay were bothering me before this.   I am talking to the office manager about some kind of adjustment on my account.  I don't think that after all the misery I've had to endure  through the holidays of all times, that I should be charged full-price for these, because even with the insurance, I'm still on the hook for over $1500!   We'll see what they end up saying.

Until next time...